Sensing the need for Survival.
Finding solace in the unexplainable things was what brought me closer to finding my own truth . Holding onto that reality led me here. I was toppled over by grief too many times and now planting the seed for forgiveness took strength. It took a magnitude of emotions to get me here. My life was a parody of emotions living to its highest degree. The sabotaging brought justice on my part and I knew I could get over the hurt one more time. Now as I lay here, I wondered my mentality. Who was the one calling the shots? Who was the one bringing forth the change? It was me at the forefront of these emotions. Why couldn’t I just accept defeat and accept the lowest calibre that had entwined my body. That meant that I no longer accepted myself, I did not want to go there and swoop so low. There comes a certain point that makes you sink to that level and there comes a certain time when you say enough is enough. The volumes of paperwork that embody my emotions stand still; I am not givi...