The Path to Discovery

The light dimmed slowly as I woke from my sleep. I could see the stirring of another person waking from their slumber. Who thought that living alone could make it so hard when guests slept the night? Having your own inconsistencies and living the life you want is not so bad. Slumber is a part of my life that I love. I love waking to my own tune and feeling like I can walk naked around the room while laughing and dancing to my own reflection. When the time comes to wake and slowly walk out of the room, that was a part of the day that I wanted to do all over again.  Was I being greedy for wanting to hop back into bed with that magazine I had been wanting to read all week? I wanted my own time but knowing when to tread the line and welcome my guest into my abode takes compassion, sensitivity and a welcoming of hospitality. This is a reflection of my past but dreaming of living alone can be a wonderous sigh of relief for me when I need that space in the mornings. We ar...

The sound came pouring out of me as I held on for dear life.  The screams could be heard all around as I tried to let go of the fear. The rollercoaster was taking me up and down the windy tracks and I was terrified. I was hoping I could make the ride without throwing up. I laugh now but at the time I was sitting next to my sons’ friend and I had blood coming from my cold sore. I held on and tried to not make a spectacle of myself. That was my calling card, not wanting people to hear me. Being worried about how I would be judged. So, what if I got off a ride looking like a spectacle. Would people remember me after that day? No, they would keep going on with their own days and not really remember the demented woman clinging onto a child for safety.  I look at the old me, I look at how far I have come. I see my reflection sometimes and know this was meant to be. I had jobs at the time I thought were not meant to be part of who I was, I now realize it helped me with lif...

As my path was turning so was my own mind.  The seed was planted and so was the one that was going to bring me further to my truth. Just like a seed that is planted in the ground, that seed starts growing. It depends on the temperature, the surroundings, the climate and how well the seed was handled in the first place for it to blossom. Chances come in many forms for each person but weighing them up is even harder to distinguish. Sometimes biting the bullet can be a chance for some and also a saviour for others.  Do not dwell too much on the chances as there will be timelines and formats, calculations and anything else that will keep you on your path for the foundation of what is meant to be. My last job, I sat there with my feet dangling in one corner and my mind in another. Why was I sitting in an office that resembled a torture chamber? It may not have really been that, but I was claustrophobic in there and had the walls engulfing me like they were going to wrap thei...

There are many people that face hardship at this time of the year. Sometimes we do not know how to help them, sometimes we just want to walk from the sorrow and resentment that lies dormant ready to explode. There are times in the year that do not make sense for the more vulnerable and for the solitude in life. When the will to move on takes courage that is when we lie in wait for the resurrection of the new life? Being complete is letting go of all the resentment and bitterness that prayer can accomplish. You may not be spiritual, you may not have your own faith; but believing in miracles brings a sense of relinquishment and pride in oneself. I have many experiences in my own life where I have shed a tear for someone that I have loved. Someone that cannot hold their own responsibility. It makes sense to the person that has the mental illness, but it comes in waves and you have to accept the logic in their own mind. Be brave, be strong and let the waves come an...

Music is a parallel world for stress release, calmness and beyond. It helps people feel a sense of calm before the storm. Many musicians in time have had the knack for allowing one’s own suffering to be heard. How many cultures and religions have played a significant role in music? Music helps people escape their realm and through that little bit of blues and hip hop can be a joy to one’s soul, when the heart is truly allowed to flourish.   Music came to me when my heart was hurting through break ups, spiritual awakenings and when I was sinking to a new low. Those were times when the heart was broken. Allowing the source of the problem to sink into the music helped diminish my worries. It had a sense of peace and allowed my emotions to be held together more wisely. Music is anything you set your mind to. It could be the sound of the birds as they all sound out a melody of entwinement together or it could be the sound of the wind chimes as the wind blows through t...

How many times have you wondered about the success of other women and how they got there? It is with aspiration and determination that has fulfilled their desires and attributed to their success. Without women empowerment, there may not be another road to travel without that feminist touch. Who would think that the world could be so empowered and looked upon with the utmost respect? Learning to love yourself takes courage and brutal honesty where we know we can head to what we want to achieve. Take it from me, who has sat there all my life wondering how to achieve that. This is the moment that shines brightly, when listening to the podcasts and watching the documentaries where other woman can showcase their ambitions and sincerity. Being open to what you achieve is inspirational in all forms. Being your own warrior shows that you are fierce, determined and outright a champion. Somewhere out there is a calling for what you know, for what you stand for and what your...