Weighing up my chances.

As my path was turning so was my own mind. The seed was planted and so was the one that was going to bring me further to my truth. Just like a seed that is planted in the ground, that seed starts growing. It depends on the temperature, the surroundings, the climate and how well the seed was handled in the first place for it to blossom. Chances come in many forms for each person but weighing them up is even harder to distinguish. Sometimes biting the bullet can be a chance for some and also a saviour for others. 

Do not dwell too much on the chances as there will be timelines and formats, calculations and anything else that will keep you on your path for the foundation of what is meant to be. My last job, I sat there with my feet dangling in one corner and my mind in another. Why was I sitting in an office that resembled a torture chamber? It may not have really been that, but I was claustrophobic in there and had the walls engulfing me like they were going to wrap their arms around me and not let go. Having the life sucked out of me by sticking to the corporate rules and regulations of society was a ticking bomb that I needed to release. I wanted to be free and to allow the times to engulf me with pure love and light. 

We are all entitled to the freedom that we are wanting. I am going to take the chance of finding my own path of success. That does not mean that the path has not taken many other forms of insecurities, sadness and despair along the way. I have gone through those time and come out looking better than what I thought. Joining the beat of the drums was fragmented into tiny pieces. When I came out of that hole, picking up the pieces and putting them back together was easier than what I thought. I had reassurance love and hope sitting there waiting for the time to flourish. 

A friend recently told me bluntly to take that chance. I thank him for giving me a kick up the butt when I needed it. This chance starts right now for this new chapter in my life and is realisation that my life will not get better waiting for something to happen. It is getting off your backside and finding the strength to conquer. I stand proudly and know I have back up along with the way with friendships and family. I thank these people for giving me the strength to conquer within even when I have not had enough courage to face my own demons.  Farewell to the old me and release the person I am meant to be. Like an onion, we need to peel away the layers to finally reach the core that was wrapped up so tightly and protected. This is when the real work begins.