My thought pattern needs refreshing.

 


Sibella Publications/ Luminous Wisdom/ Jacqui Ray



The hot cup of tea that sat on the bench looked like something I would drink, it echoed me. It echoed the remaining factions of the old me. I summon up the courage to take it and throw it down the sink. I don’t want the same; I want new, I want change. I want compatibility for a new me. The hot cup of tea represents the old. The longing for change came once the new year entered. I smelt the percolated coffee and it hit me for six. I wanted gumption to evolve, I wanted the finer points in life to showcase what was really out there. Time stands still for those that wait, others put on a brave face and face the world in a different way. That hot cup of coffee that percolates on the bench shows the real me, it shows the fire inside. 

The boy stood the test of time only to be told he was no good, that was not to be me. I wanted a lanyard that could swing back and forth without letting go.That lanyard would hold me steady while I made the change. Looking back at the times that felt unprecedented shows how life has come full circle. It shows the moon setting and the stars aligned. It shows the times that catapult me to a new level of understanding. The sun rose for a new day, the sun can be seen far away. We all know what it looks like, but we all have different experiences when manifesting our intentions with it. 

I hold onto truth; I hold on to my own power. I understand it is futile to want things that I cannot have. Maybe it is not the right time. I will get it eventually but for now I have to settle for the dream. I reprimand myself sometimes, it is a harsh lesson knowing that at my age I am still learning the cryptic words that echo from me. I understand that the basics in life teach me a fundamental lesson and that is trust. Trust comes to me when I know that I live my life to my fullest degree. I show a degree that can only be taught with knowledge and reference from a very young age. That age is the defining moment of what you become. 

That is a welcome to humanity, we don’t choose the ways of life from a young age. I know that the hot cup of tea that was brought to me for all those years has outgrown me. I am the one now to make my decisions and the coffee that stands firm on the counter is the one I choose. Now let the good times roll, let them soak up the atmosphere. Let it parade around in front of you to enjoy, the life I live is mine. It is my time to help the ones around me while I can, and with that determination, I will. 

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