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The World is my oyster.

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The hummingbird makes my spirit want to jump out of me. I see a fixture that glides over the water when at peace with myself, the water parades itself for all to see. I have a hunch that today shows a brighter side with the mammoth task at hand, that is to rebalance myself. Rebalancing the waves that wash over me, that makes me a better person. I try to harness the freshness that comes out of the linen sheets, the smell that protrudes from the laundry room when on a nice spring day. I want to rebirth myself in all that splendour from the younger years. The fresh linen that would smell so inconsolably like home, the one where I felt at ease.  That is my future, to make me the strong one where I can call a spade a spade and know that life has other things in store. Looking back, I can see that I made a lasting impression on some people. Some for good, others a way that is less favourable. I wake up in sweats sometimes reliving the moments in my teens that were incoherently not good....
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SHINE BRIGHTLY.

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Showing gumption is part of the calling. Have you ever woken up and wondered how the day would go? I know I have; I had the intention of doing good, but I fell flat on my face. I bitched and moaned about the littlest things that came my way. I looked in the mirror and saw a mean-spirited person looking back at me. I try every day to be a good person, I try to influence people in a way that I want to be influenced. How does that sound? I think that with all the worldly knowledge we have in our brains, maybe somehow, we can take all good out of it and bring forth sunshine.    Sunshine holds me steady in times of trouble. It holds the light beaming towards me in uncertain times. It shines a light on my mental stability and courage. Looking out the window I see rain, it is pouring down. I know it is good for the crops but why does the influx of rain have to happen when I am about to walk out the door? Easy solution, take a raincoat and prepare for the elements. Take an umbrella a...
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The man lying in wait.

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I had just finished my shift and unbeknown to me, had an interesting afternoon ahead. Normally when my job finished for the day, I would tailgate it home to my son. This afternoon was different though and as I lay in wait for the adventure to take me further, the path was waiting. I slowly made my way home and as the road hit the Bayside suburbs, I could feel myself inching closer to the man lying in wait. I could feel the vibrations of the car as it bounced up and down along the majestic road, making the sounds ricochet through the streets. The lone car on the road in front of me was not sounding good and for all the time I had, I knew he needed help.   The gentleman looked perplexed as I waved to him from my car, telling him to manoeuvre to the side of the road. This gentleman was one I would remember. He stepped out of the car, tattoos all over him and a masculinity that would make anyone shudder. I searched for words as I asked him if I could help. He had a flat tyre and all I ...
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Making a change takes patience.

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It’s that time of the year again when I think about what I could be doing. I want to sail around the world, I want to vacation on an exotic location made possible by private jets and I want my life to be a fairy tale with castles galore. Is that real life? Do I really need all of this to make myself happy? Happiness comes from within and really, I could be happy where I am right now. At home in a nice comfy chair reading a good book, being satisfied with life as it steams rolls ahead. I look, I hope, and I dream. I see that now is the perfect opportunity to dream while still maintaining a sensible head. My dreams have manifested into a book.  I have never written a novel before but now as I sit at home, I have brought it up to the forefront of my emotions. I look at the bookshops with all the authors, all those dreams that have turned into a reality. Do I think that I am capable of writing a novel? Is it realistic to dream so big? To me, yes. Other people have grand plans and for a...
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My thought pattern needs refreshing.

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  Sibella Publications/ Luminous Wisdom/ Jacqui Ray The hot cup of tea that sat on the bench looked like something I would drink, it echoed me. It echoed the remaining factions of the old me. I summon up the courage to take it and throw it down the sink. I don’t want the same; I want new, I want change. I want compatibility for a new me. The hot cup of tea represents the old. The longing for change came once the new year entered. I smelt the percolated coffee and it hit me for six. I wanted gumption to evolve, I wanted the finer points in life to showcase what was really out there. Time stands still for those that wait, others put on a brave face and face the world in a different way. That hot cup of coffee that percolates on the bench shows the real me, it shows the fire inside.  The boy stood the test of time only to be told he was no good, that was not to be me. I wanted a lanyard that could swing back and forth without letting go.That lanyard would hold me steady while I ...
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Sensing the need for Survival.

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Finding solace in the unexplainable things was what brought me closer to finding my own truth . Holding onto that reality led me here. I was toppled over by grief too many times and now planting the seed for forgiveness took strength. It took a magnitude of emotions to get me here. My life was a parody of emotions living to its highest degree. The sabotaging brought justice on my part and I knew I could get over the hurt one more time. Now as I lay here, I wondered my mentality. Who was the one calling the shots? Who was the one bringing forth the change?    It was me at the forefront of these emotions. Why couldn’t I just accept defeat and accept the lowest calibre that had entwined my body. That meant that I no longer accepted myself, I did not want to go there and swoop so low. There comes a certain point that makes you sink to that level and there comes a certain time when you say enough is enough. The volumes of paperwork that embody my emotions stand still; I am not givi...
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TIME IS AN IMPORTANT FACTOR.

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The coming of the new year is upon us. Not long now until the celebrations are had with the ones we cherish. The times spent around the dinner table longing for respite from the ones we love, are now in the past. We hope, we dream; the magnitude of life has taken us in one fell sweep. We long for the times that made no sense then, the challenges combined from the monumental aspects of change. Change comes when the pretence is waiting to be released. I hope that dreams are fulfilled by all, reaching a pinnacle of success we are all dreaming of.    That has been lost lately for the time of desperation had reached many people’s lives. I was one of them contemplating my next move. I was a believer that all my insecurities were to be placed out on the surface, to showcase how you can get past the dramas of life. Sensing a need to release all the drama brought on by fear was a catapult for my recovery. To curtail the dreams that manifest in your sleep, for I am a believer in dreams....
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